Sunday, October 14, 2007

First Kiss!

You may know about my Kindergarten romance with James Higgins.
We would Kiss on the play ground and pretend he was Luke Skywalker and I was Princess Leia. (we didn't have the knowledge of their being twins- thing).

Well....
Mickey told me this today:
"I have a boy friend and it is Kaleb."
Kaleb F. is a boy in her Primary class who also lives down the street. She'd said he was her boyfriend before to me.
"He is my boy friend and I am gonna practice being a mommy as a baby sitter and then we are going to get married."
I asked her if she told this to Kaleb. She said "No , it is a secret"
I smiled
Then she told me that after her class they went up on the stage and behind the curtains...
"and mommy He kissed me on the cheek!"
Smiling super big and jumping up and down, she was so excited as she told me this!
Yay!!!!!! (
Though, L would probably roll his eyes and say OH NO! Every dad worries about boys and their daughters.)
I was so happy. See, I was praying to thank Heavenly Father that she even thought getting married was a good thing. Rare for her.
Here is a back up about M's attitude.
M and I have been doing school everyday and spending a lot of time reading and talking. So I tell her the other day that I love her and I am glad she is my daughter and that I am glad to be her mommy. I say something to this effect: When you are a mommy you will get to have fun teaching your baby.
She then tells me “no, I’m not going to have children and I am not going to be a mommy.”
I ask her why not.
She tells me, ”because, it is too hard and I don’t want to do it!”
I continue, by saying, “what if I had decided it was too hard and I never had you?”
She just gave me this look that said well that would never happen cause look I am right here.
Ever since her words have echoed in my heart and mind. This isn’t some random thought of hers either, she has said these things for at least 2 years. I don’t know where it first started, but she has stuck by this No kids, no marriage, and no being a mommy, just a babysitter idea.
It hurts me. It gives me the thought that I am not doing something great in the eyes of my child. It also tells me she is reading these feelings somehow from my attitude and how I approach the challenges of being a mother.
YIKES!!!!!!

After the R.S. conference and General conference, I knew my work was cut out for me to help her want to be a mother and have a family! So I have been praying and asking Heavenly Father to help me show here the joys of being a mom.

Now I know she just needed a boyfriend. Chuckle... Wink!
Oh yea and a KISS!

6 comments:

Trent said...

This awesome, I love it.

Trent said...

PS. Daryllyn You are a great Mother!! I love you and I look up to you so much!!

mer said...

this is hilarious! Dlyn you're awesome and Mckayla's awesome :).

Lorajean said...

I love this dress McKayla is wearing! If you ever take nice portraits of your girls wearing their awesome hand sewn dresses, I would love to paint them!

Lorajean said...

PS I was signed in a Trent so those are actually my comments. He thinks your a good mom too though.

Annie Carie said...

Hee hee